Logan and I broke up last night. I missed my last three classes and the Thespian Banquet tonight (or rather, I am currently missing it) because I kept crying. I am having a somewhat large emotional meltdown. Rationally, I know that Logan isn't really right for me and that we had more bad times than good, etc. Rationally I know that it's all for the best. Emotionally, I'm kind of a mess. I loved that guy, and I was willing to keep trying to make it work. He wasn't. It's... disappointing. I guess everyone thinks their first love will last forever... I don't think I actually ever thought that, but on some level, I believed it...
I also lost the election for President of Thespians. I'm actually pretty grateful b/c now she can't boss me around anymore. Anyway, I'm somewhat in crisis so if anyone of my friends reading this wants to, I'd appreciate a call/page/post/etc. I could really use someone to talk to.
My computer is having SERIOUS issues, which means there will probably be no updates for at least a few weeks, except to this journal, and the quotes page. And expect some whining and crying from me because no matter how much I know that Logan and I do not belong together, I cannot convince my stupid little insolent emotions to accept thiat relatively simple fact. I guess I just need time to grieve... Yes. Time to grieve. To reconnect with friends and find myself again.
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